I have hidden all my life terrified of the physical world I came into. The angelic, etheric and other higher vibrational realms are completely natural to me. They are where I am most comfortable. That is why I have daily experiences with “the beings” in these dimensions. In other words, rather than forgetting them when I took on a physical body, I came in with an awareness of them I didn’t forget (many, many people today are in the same category).

Everyone comes in remembering where they came from. That is why children universally interact with beings most adults can’t “see”. At some point in growing up though, we forget (about the time our intellects and ego get put together and we stop living from our hearts). But the truth is, THEY and THEIR REALMS are what actually is REAL and the part of us that is physical, what we call human being, IS AN ILLUSION. All of what we call “Reality” is just a giant hologram set up so we could experience the physical. We have to have the physical realm to experience emotion and “physicalness”.

I say the part of us that is physical quite deliberately because we are eternal beings with many aspects or expressions in many energetic levels/dimensions/harmonics in many universes. Even Mother Earth is more than the ball of dirt we fly around on. She too has energetic aspects that transcend her physical presence in this universe. We and she are expressions of what I will call the Great Intelligence that creates Everything, or in the case of our universe – Everything/Nothing. The challenge of this physical realm is that by its very nature it has to be energetically dense, meaning operating at a low vibrational frequency. The higher realms cannot operate here except through our hearts because they have no physical form. The saying “We are spiritual beings having a human experience” IS ENTIRELY TRUE!

In times past only certain beings with physical bodies evolved to a point where they clearly remembered that this life is an illusion and were able to easily manipulate and instantly manifest form from thought. We call them avatars and ascended Masters, and have worshipped them as gods (all our religions in the past 10,000 years are based on these holy beings). It has always been the intention of the Great Intelligence however, to see if a physical world and its people could evolve to a higher vibrational level or transcend, while still remaining in their physical bodies, just as these “gods” have done. The experiment on Earth has been tried several times over the billions of years that the earth has existed (in physical form), but each time it ended in failure, the earth was destroyed and the experiment started over. Now in this 21^st century of the current experiment, we humans have at last succeeded – with a lot of help from higher dimensional beings who “went to bat” for us (what this means is they loved us so very much they would not give up on us and found ways to help us even though most of us were not aware of it).

I am saying all this as a back ground context for my ability to walk in several realms at the same time and I now say, “Geez, no wonder life here has been confusing and terrifying!” I’ve only just figured out what’s been going on! Well, my heart has always known this (the access to these other realms is through the heart NOT the mind), but my head (and ego) had to be convinced of this because I am super sensitive and it needed to protect me some how so I could survive here (another way of putting this is that I came into my physical body vibrating at a higher frequency). In this physical realm it is a blessing and a curse. It allows me to paint at the caliber I now do, and to experience my beloved unicorns, angels, faeries, little people etc., but it also up till now made it hard to deal with the physical world. I get frequent headaches from changes in barometric pressure, I cannot drink alcohol or take any kind of mind altering drug in even the smallest quantity without getting a blistering headache or throwing up. I am sensitive to chemicals in foods and my environment (though the children being born today are FAR more sensitive than I am to these things- thus all the food allergies/sensitivities). I also get headaches from being in large groups of people because each person has an energy signature and I get bombarded with all this energy that is mostly incongruent. On top of it all I am empathic, meaning I feel what everyone else is feeling. And since most of us are incongruent ie inauthentic about who we really are, this makes for a very conflicted state (again, a lot of children cannot handle the incongruency their parents exhibit to the point of getting angry when their parents lie to them – often unconsciously - so they “act out” or get labeled a “problem” child. I would add here that children who get labeled ADD or ADHD or even autistic are not problems but children with a special need – the need to be stimulated! They are SO highly intelligent and sensitive they are BORED STIFF with the traditional and conventional learning systems and require new, alternative ways of being related to and taught. Again, many of them are so ultra sensitive ie vibrate at a high frequency, they cannot handle the life they were born into and “check out” in order to survive it (I am speaking here of the autistics and those with extreme mental and psychological “disorders”. I may have to start adding a “books” section on my web site for you to visit if you want to read more on any of the topics I bring up in my writings).

In my case I have been aware of my sensitivity for many years but up till now did not know how to handle it so my mind has protected me by taking me out of those environments. My ego justifies it by being spiritually arrogant. I tell myself “I am better than them because I am more spiritually aware”. Hmmm, try telling that to anyone and see how well it goes over! Not so much!

Sufficed to say, my way of dealing with my physical world till now has been to live on the fringe of society, as invisible as possible, away from as many people as possible. At least that way I have been able to have some comfort. But I have paid a very heavy price. I have hidden my beautiful Spirit whose painting gift never got shared with any but a small group of people.

The truth is I came here to Earth this time to create and share Beauty, and one expression I am particularly good at is painting (I have been practicing my skill for some twenty-five years. You do anything for twenty-five years and you’ll get good at it! Yes, I have put in my 10,000 hours. However, the beings in the other realms contribute energetically to my paintings and this is the part that has my paintings elevate to another level). I also came to experience, grow and evolve. AND I came to joyously celebrate with the unicorns, angels and ALL the other higher dimensional beings, the monumental achievement we physical beings have pulled off with the help, as I said before of many other dimensional beings. We are ascending to a new level of being where by we have a physical body, free will AND we are starting to live from our hearts again! We are creating love and magic!

I tell this story in another way that is available for you as a “story” called “Return of the Unicorn”, and you can also learn specifically how I began painting unicorns in the “writings” sections of my site. There have been so many people who have had a hand in my learning process as I have come to finally understand my job now is to master this illusion we call “Life” so that I can get what I have to share out into the world to as many people as are willing to accept it. My days of hiding are done. Either I grow or live the remainder of my earthly life completely dissatisfied. And because we have succeeded in this grand experiment I have full permission from The Great Intelligence and every higher dimensional being that exists here and in all the other realms to “let her rip!” It is my duty to do so. Now I must meet myself head on, take off the carefully constructed mask of fear I’ve for worn almost all my life (for fear has kept me safely hidden), and each day do something that as a human being may make me uncomfortable or challenge my mind’s thought that “I’ll die if I do that!” This web site and my blog are my initial effort to reach into the world and share my truth. As I write this, a unicorn stands at my left and an angel named Sarauh at my right, just as they did in my days of living in the last time of Atlantis (that’s a story for another time!) I have layers and layers to peel off, and as I do I know for certain I will be more bold and daring in my efforts to sell my artwork and get it out to a wider audience. You the reader are helping me right now to share myself more and become less concerned about what others think of me. After all, I did not die by writing this. I am most surely LIVING – HA!!!!